short pants romance

I really want to get back into posting to this thing, but I can't seem to get my thoughts together about what to write.

Now that the suffocating stress of wedding planning is over, I need to follow more creative pursuits. I want to take pictures again, like I used to. Nowadays I pretty much only dig out my camera when we're on a trip, not like the old days. I vaguely remember when I would carry my camera around everywhere I went, just to snap anything that caught my eye, no matter how big or small. As a result, I have this great collection of Philly photographs that document my first year or so living here, back when I was wide-eyed and hopeful, and slightly more hip. When I look at them, I remember how exciting it was - new city, new apartment, new job. The first few months I lived here, I walked all over the city every night, just exploring and enjoying. I wish I knew how to rekindle that feeling. I don't think I've ever lost it completely, because I have flashes of it now and then anytime we're visiting or driving through a different neighborhood for some reason. I think, "Oh my goodness, we need to come back here when we have more time." The trouble is, I get to that moment where I have more time, and all I can think is, "Ehhh....let's just stick to our familiar haunts."

One of our resolutions as a married couple is to spend more time without each other. Silly, yes, but I think the best way to keep things interesting between us is to go out on our own and find things to bring back to the relationship. I have a tendency to feel guilty about taking any attention away from Greg while we're both home, which is absurd because it's not like he's demanding to be entertained (although I am quite entertaining). I just need to get in the habit of making some "me time", as they say.

I also need to work on some sort of outlet for my creativity. Or more precisely, I need to figure out whether I actually have any creativity in me. I feel like one of those people who really appreciates art, music, etcetera when I see or hear it, but as far as making it on my own, I'm hopeless. But I think one of the problems is that I don't actually devote any time to it. Hopefully my new craft studio will be conducive to getting my creative juices flowing. Even if I just sit up there doodling on a piece of paper or knitting, at least I'm creating instead of just absorbing.

Oh, and you should really check out the new Jens Lekman album. "A Postcard to Nina" is my absolute favorite.